~~ my infection result ~~

thank god....
finally the results r out ~~
all clear ...
phew~~~

healthy life back~~
but still fuck up life

~~ naive childish bastard ~~

after 22 years of learning in the reality world....
still a naive childish bastard living right here wasting time
fuck up life ...
fuck up person
fuck up personality
fuck up attitude
fuck everythings up !!!

SUCH A DAMN ASSHOLE!!!!!

~~ i'm hungry ~~

the time now is 1.57am, 10 of nov 2007, sat.

i juz came back from hospital after finishing my "on call" work.

and now .. i'm damn HUNGRY !!!!

but ~~~~ i can't eat....

Y???

bcauz ... i'm on diet ... obessity is killing me !!!

help me pls !!!!!

~~我结婚了~~

我想大声的宣布 ！！！　


我决定结婚了！！！

当。。当。。达当。。当达当。。。

让我介绍我老婆。。。。。



MAP 9312 是她的名，皮肤有点黑，很帮的上我的忙。

噢！！。。。我还有位女朋友。。
她的名叫 north-south high way~~~~

I'm going nuts n crazy d !!!

~~ ROCKS ! ! ~~

it's from neil zaza..

~~ 灰 ~~

my new post
~ 灰 ~
- end -

hahahaha....

p/s : grey's anatomy is a great series to watch... watch that and u guys will understand how i work ... but soon ... everything is coming to an end.

-casper-

~~ Great Interview ~~

What a great interview with Dato Seri Syed Hamid Alba



http://youtube.com/watch?v=qlQWNib2Tcw

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Pe23ChwRb4s

http://youtube.com/watch?v=2JA6rt6cX6k

～～一首不旧不新又好听的歌～～

歌曲：就是爱你

歌手：陶喆 专辑：太平盛世
曲:陶喆
词:娃娃
我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意我也可以付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝要记得我们相爱的方式

就是爱你爱着你有悲有喜有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你甜蜜又安心那种感觉就是你

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意真的愿意付出所有也要保护你

oh 在一起时间继续流逝请记得我有多么的爱你
oh 就是爱你爱着你不弃不离开不在意一路有多少风雨

就是爱你爱着你放在你手心灿烂的幸福全给你

oh 就是爱你爱着你我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你要我们在一起

~~人生大变化~~

人。。事。。物。。
这三个很普通的字
能代表着很多很多意思
有时因为人所以事和物都必须做些该的变化
有时因为事所以人和物都必须做些该的变化
有时因为物所以人和事都必须做些该的变化

这三个字好不简单哦。。。
人生就好像在做交易吗？？
交易的对象又是谁呢？？
好抽象。。。

命运。。。性格。。。态度。。。
都是生成的吗？？？

。。变了。。

变了。。
很多东西都变了。。
在也不和以前一样。。
快乐不常在。。。

变了。。
现在的我也变了。。
在也不是以前的小鬼了。。
不在happy go lucky了。。。

寻找者一个属于我的角落。。。

~~lazy~~

alot of shitty things happen ..
but i lazy to write...............and no time..
don't know y ~~~
next time only write lah..
when the mood is here..
hehe..
good luck and take care my friends ..

~~ 6 sense ~~

a bad feeling.......
6 sense...
a very terrifiying feeling...
i always choose not to believe in my stupid 6 sense...
cauz i don't want things like this to happen
pls..............................
god listen to me...
dont' let it happen
not the 2nd time around us

~~ life ~~

after i had shorten my hair till nearly botak ~~
as i look at it grow longer ..
a feeling came through me ..
a feel of when i'm young long long time N years ago till now ..

wat had i done, who am i, where am i

after those question ..

now ..

where am i going, wat am i going to do, who am i going to be,

gosh ~~ damn dilemma now ...

a lot of should i or should not ...
i have made a decision ... should i carry on?? where's my confident ...

i need a vacation ... i need relax my body .. mind .. and soul ..
fuuh ~~
tired ... sleep lah botak .. think so much ..

p/s : i found a quote:
"as a bird, my family tough me how to fly high up the sky,
but without forgetting the nest below where i come from"
great quote. i should keep it in my mind.
i believe the quote not only mean family, but friends too. treasure wat we have.

~~decision being made~~

i had made a decision last afternoon.....
that is..........................
i wanna ...............................








cut botak~~~~~
and..... i went and did it ...
hehe

~~~shit i kiss a guy~~~

holy shit !!!!
guess wat ...
last sat in pure... i kiss a guy ...
wtf !!!!
the guy is edward....
damn.... can i join the broke back mountain 2????
how wish i could be gay ~~~
haha don't have to fan !!!

恋爱症候群

黄舒俊:恋爱症候群

恋爱症候群的发生原因
至今仍然是最大的一个迷
不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型
没有一个人可以免疫
有些专家学者研究后相信
恋爱是内分泌失调所引起
却有别人认为恋爱属于过滤性簿
像感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈
不管你同不同意
自古到今许多例子证明
恋爱不但是一种病态
它还可能是一种变态

一般发病后的初期反应
会开始改变一些生活习性
洗澡洗得特别干净刷牙刷得特别用力
半夜里爬起来弹钢琴
有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑
有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静
有人一脸痴呆对著镜子咬著指甲打喷嚏
有人对小狗骂三字经
女人开始改变发型
男人开始每天练著哑铃
食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖
抽筋都出现在这时期

随著病情越来越变本加厉
人会变得格外敏感勇敢和恶心
写的唱的说的都像天才诗人一般才华洋溢
愈肉麻愈觉得有趣
有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方
像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙著算命
挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性
把每天都当作记念日
把自己当作记念品
每天漫无目的腻在一起
言不及意也决得好有趣
走著坐著躺著趴著都行影不离
像是两人三脚又像连体婴
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管家里米缸有没有米
也不管路上有人示威抗议
只管爱你
心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你
也不管海峡两岸统一问题
也不管埃塞俄比亚多少难民
只管爱你

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期
不久就会开始渐渐痊愈
两人开始互相厌倦互相攻击对方缺点
所有甜言蜜语都随风而去
然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明
为了爱情不顾一切
不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟
开始感到后悔不已
然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓
然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁四肢麻痹
终于受不了要分离

虽然结果颇令人伤心
了解之后也没什么了不起
爱情终究是握不住的云
只是我想要告诉你

哦...

在我落寞的岁月里
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂
带给我深深的狂喜
如此颤动著我的心灵
轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管黑夜或是黎明
不管梦中或是清醒
深深爱你
我要对你说爱你爱你爱你爱你
不管黑夜或是黎明
不管梦中或是清醒
深深爱你
多么幸福
让我遇见你
呜...

~~the up and down days that been through~~

wah~~ wat a long time nvr write blog...
em....been away to enjoy and suffer...so... i'm going to start my story now...

17 april 2007, 2.34am
i'm still awake.. hah... for comfirm... i'm suffering from insomia again... but this time i've identified wat's the problem n i know y i'm hving insomia....

3 big reasons :
- my company, my career , my future
- after vacation and relax
- juz some problem that not to being mention lah ~ (for me to know enuf )

(my company, my career , my future.)
first ... i wanna to say that after 9 months of torturing in this present company, finally i'm being comfirm. my effort being recognize.. em... good
but wat's da outcome???? my boss start to throw unnecessary stuf for us to do and everything being last minute. some of my plan being spoil by him and some of it nearly spoil by him. WTF !!
and now is time for me to reconsider my career and my future. should or should not to continue to stay in this company???

(after vacation and relax)
after coming back from Perhentian Island, i found that i like the beach and sea and the sun ( some time ) thinking of planning another trip mayb months after that if i manage to settle my 1st problem.....
the sound of the sea ... the breeze of the island wind ... sometimes the hot sun sometimes the cool moon ... makes me totally relax and out of this reality yet cruel and problematic society ... sometimes being a beach boy is much more better than a guy who rushing to work for money to survive... i miss the breeze the sound and the wat ever lah.....

(juz some problem that not to being mention lah)
for this, i will keep to myself. haha... sry ... for those who knows, u know lah ... for those who don't know, is ok lah ... than nvm cauz is for me to know only.... (since when i become so cold)
i need to talk !!!! to to to .... hai ~~~~

i juz don't know.... in myself i juz felt that .... life ... life is a miserable thing and.... and... and....
fate of life , destiny of life also ... very miserable 1 lah ... duh~~~
if only i had a reset button on some where of my body... i would very likely to press it.... at least
i will lost the bad memories.... everyday a brand new day is a good day....

any way how ..... wat i wanna say is .... hai~~~~ life is a miserable thing that i F*CKING hate it !!!

p/s : ms wan xin, how good if u were here... you could be my Psychiatrist!!! haha .. juz a lame joke

~~H@i~~ “ma land” ~~

嗐～～～刚刚和朋友和完茶。。。又讲到“ma land”的事情。。。
又在“烤peh”ma land 的 那些领袖。。。只会照顾自己的人。。。没什么照顾到其他的“我们”。。。连我们那些所为的“同皮肤的我们”在高层里都没话说。。。为了自己的保障。。。只能听“他们”讲。。。完全没有democratic。。。我们要如何生存哦。。。

很多人都说跳飞机。。。都不知有没有人要收留。。。感觉好想是不良父母。。。好偏心。。。不顾长子。。只顾幼儿。。。嗐。。。能顾到几时哦。。。不伸手有饭吃。。。会懒惰再严重会变白痴的～～好听点就是依赖～～～

讲$$$也输人。。。讲发展也输人。。。不知有什么好自豪～～

不知要如何。。。还是靠知己。。。多卖些“废铁”。。。过生活吧～～～

~~N@nDaYo！！！！~~

我又在次失眠了。。。this is my 4th time in my life...每次失眠时。。都感觉将会有事发生～～～前三次都不是很好勒～～～“jit pai”是好是坏都 emm cai yah~~hai~~~~pek ciak ler~~
我烤！我得去JB工作。。。敢敢在这个时候失眠。。。@#$%&。。。我要如何驾车喔！！！
还是不要睡了。。。尽然已经睡不下。。赶紧起来准备去JB了。。。。我看啊。。。我这条“鬼”命真的是。。。si beh de koh ar ~~~人家做鬼我做鬼。。。真的是同鬼不同 "mia" 啊！！！
B4 ending, 我很enjoy今晚的晚餐。。。 kam xia kam xia ~~

-casper-

无聊的“ME”

嗐～～～～
超级无聊的我。。。闲着没事做，不能受朋友“诱惑”的邀请。。。哈哈。。在10pm一起开车“冲上云霄”。。eheh...不是不是。。是“冲上云顶”！！
到了后二话不说，英雄势的就跑进　"uncle lim's 最终battle field"　里“pa pia”。
先来就顺风得手。。。再来个心想事成，叫什么有什么。。。哈哈超级兴奋。。。但后来还是归回uncle lim。最后还不是相打败战的不知道叫什么雄的走出来。。。
从1am　"pa pia"　到8am，我的眼睛真的是相熊猫那样的黑！！
还好，不需要我驾车。。不让。。。还是别说好。。。。。。
到家十一点多，在冲凉房里把“霉”气通通冲走后。。。就走近“与周小姐一日一约会”的梦境。
嗐～～～～早知就别浪费一整晚的时间了～～～
"_" l l l

~~CNY~~

so fast. .. 5th of cny d.... don't know been doing wat the pass few days...
feel like i'm wasting my time on gamble .. lepak .. and house visiting..
em.. mayb this is m'sia cny culture kua~~
too bad.. gotta accept it ..
em... here wanna remind a friend whom fly to ausie and won't be seeing her for a long long time..
wan xin.
nice to know you as a friend and thx for those text book u borrowed me..(but after reading i still dont' understand wat does it means) hehe...
wishing u, good luck and all the best in ausie ~ do take care... sayonara
well... going back to work... have to start tuning my body clock back to normal and not being a "nite kidz" anymore...
have faith in myself to show who am i this year in my career...

finally...new blog

haha...new blog.. but don't know how long will this last.. how long would i update once..
still an unknow to me either..
well..
cny 1st day complete this blog.. ok lah
welcome ~~

-casper~