~~the up and down days that been through~~

wah~~ wat a long time nvr write blog...
em....been away to enjoy and suffer...so... i'm going to start my story now...

17 april 2007, 2.34am
i'm still awake.. hah... for comfirm... i'm suffering from insomia again... but this time i've identified wat's the problem n i know y i'm hving insomia....

3 big reasons :
- my company, my career , my future
- after vacation and relax
- juz some problem that not to being mention lah ~ (for me to know enuf )

(my company, my career , my future.)
first ... i wanna to say that after 9 months of torturing in this present company, finally i'm being comfirm. my effort being recognize.. em... good
but wat's da outcome???? my boss start to throw unnecessary stuf for us to do and everything being last minute. some of my plan being spoil by him and some of it nearly spoil by him. WTF !!
and now is time for me to reconsider my career and my future. should or should not to continue to stay in this company???

(after vacation and relax)
after coming back from Perhentian Island, i found that i like the beach and sea and the sun ( some time ) thinking of planning another trip mayb months after that if i manage to settle my 1st problem.....
the sound of the sea ... the breeze of the island wind ... sometimes the hot sun sometimes the cool moon ... makes me totally relax and out of this reality yet cruel and problematic society ... sometimes being a beach boy is much more better than a guy who rushing to work for money to survive... i miss the breeze the sound and the wat ever lah.....

(juz some problem that not to being mention lah)
for this, i will keep to myself. haha... sry ... for those who knows, u know lah ... for those who don't know, is ok lah ... than nvm cauz is for me to know only.... (since when i become so cold)
i need to talk !!!! to to to .... hai ~~~~

i juz don't know.... in myself i juz felt that .... life ... life is a miserable thing and.... and... and....
fate of life , destiny of life also ... very miserable 1 lah ... duh~~~
if only i had a reset button on some where of my body... i would very likely to press it.... at least
i will lost the bad memories.... everyday a brand new day is a good day....

any way how ..... wat i wanna say is .... hai~~~~ life is a miserable thing that i F*CKING hate it !!!

p/s : ms wan xin, how good if u were here... you could be my Psychiatrist!!! haha .. juz a lame joke